well....i didn't die. i made it through the surgery. i just cannot sleep less than like 17 hours at a time right now.. getting back into work, real-life things that make things tollerable, sleep, repeat will be hard/ especially cause nothing feels right.   except the music.
 right now: coffee, orange juice, water (the key is to always be drinking 3 things at one!) listening to thou "heathen" it is so fucking good.  i slept into 4.30pm. i was listening to vomir from about 10.30pm lst night until 4.30 pm today.....i like him....!  im a mess. lurking like 5 different things at the same time on the internet.  (musical creep)

thats it. for those that care. i made it through surgery. now i just lay around in pain for days waiting for things to get "better" ha ha......if anyone even knows what better is......