.....and was told it was inspiring. which always makes me tremble and happy etc. a fluttering of emotions. anyways:
i have played in more traditional bands for years and always was planning on doing a 'noise, anw, hnw, etc' project someday. for me its been the best thing ever to happen. finally after devoting years to cancelled practices, members getting hooked on shitty drugs and leaving, new members coming and going, trying to maintain something magical that happened at a practice and translate that to a show in a room that you have never played in with people you realize you don't know that much in front of folks waiting to see another band, or maybe your band, and then awkwardly trying to keep dignity composure, etc...i think anyone who has been in a 'band' can relate to what I am trying to describe.
well. as much as i miss the 'brotherhood or whatever' of playing with others. starting finally on a project where its 100% in my hands whether anything happens, gets played, recorded, documented by tape or whatever etc is so much more fulfilling I really now wish i started years ago when i first had these urges.
in the short time i have had my current one-man-band thing going i have made amazing contacts all over the world. received and sent mail to multiple countries, let alone within the one im in.met some very beautiful sincere folks and have traded, sold, gave away, randomly sent lots of things. things i made all with my hands. from start to finish. its fucking so much more fulfilling right now than 20 plus years of being in traditional bands, touring, playing thousands of shows.
to me, its all about the process and the individual person. for me. i record, copy, make and distribute EVERYTHING all on my own. all with my own hands. its been the best thing to battle long term massive depression i have ever done, better than pills, alcohol, etc.
noise for me is perfect and of course that is just me. but that is the point. i always said in bands and ive continued it into solo noise "if its something i would like and want to play/listen to etc then its worth my time."
to me the "other" is out there and if i am to come into interaction then fucking great, but if not, im at peace with it. i cannot express how strongly i feel about this right now. i dont have to impress anyone, in noise you can fully be yourself in what you produce, how you present it, how much of it you give away, trade, sell, etc.
i adore the interpersonal interactions i have had. i love how ive been pushed to reconsider multitudes of things through sounds, art, etc.
if you do noise for the love of it, like anything else i can think of, you are doing it right.
i hope this makes some sense.
i have played in more traditional bands for years and always was planning on doing a 'noise, anw, hnw, etc' project someday. for me its been the best thing ever to happen. finally after devoting years to cancelled practices, members getting hooked on shitty drugs and leaving, new members coming and going, trying to maintain something magical that happened at a practice and translate that to a show in a room that you have never played in with people you realize you don't know that much in front of folks waiting to see another band, or maybe your band, and then awkwardly trying to keep dignity composure, etc...i think anyone who has been in a 'band' can relate to what I am trying to describe.
well. as much as i miss the 'brotherhood or whatever' of playing with others. starting finally on a project where its 100% in my hands whether anything happens, gets played, recorded, documented by tape or whatever etc is so much more fulfilling I really now wish i started years ago when i first had these urges.
in the short time i have had my current one-man-band thing going i have made amazing contacts all over the world. received and sent mail to multiple countries, let alone within the one im in.met some very beautiful sincere folks and have traded, sold, gave away, randomly sent lots of things. things i made all with my hands. from start to finish. its fucking so much more fulfilling right now than 20 plus years of being in traditional bands, touring, playing thousands of shows.
to me, its all about the process and the individual person. for me. i record, copy, make and distribute EVERYTHING all on my own. all with my own hands. its been the best thing to battle long term massive depression i have ever done, better than pills, alcohol, etc.
noise for me is perfect and of course that is just me. but that is the point. i always said in bands and ive continued it into solo noise "if its something i would like and want to play/listen to etc then its worth my time."
to me the "other" is out there and if i am to come into interaction then fucking great, but if not, im at peace with it. i cannot express how strongly i feel about this right now. i dont have to impress anyone, in noise you can fully be yourself in what you produce, how you present it, how much of it you give away, trade, sell, etc.
i adore the interpersonal interactions i have had. i love how ive been pushed to reconsider multitudes of things through sounds, art, etc.
if you do noise for the love of it, like anything else i can think of, you are doing it right.
i hope this makes some sense.
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